The feeling came like a tidal wave.
Washing me and brought me to the bottom of the ocean.
My lungs were insufficient of fresh air.
But i can't feel it.
Because another pain was overwhelming me.
Heartache.
Why was it so torturing?
Because i did my best on swimming.
But it came to nothing.

God wants me to know that:
If i relax, it comes.
Don't seek, don't search, don't ask, don't knock, don't demand.
Just relax.
If i relax, it is there.
If i relax, God will show me the way.