I am abandoning this blog.
My 100th post achieved.
I will get it done soon enough

There's a reason why attach this picture to this blog post.
Only the five of us know.
Maybe until tomorrow, the number of people knowing will increase.
Bah, it is just for a laugh. Haha. Who cares.

The time spent with the girls today is enjoyable.
Gather around the table, discussing things and just laugh out loud, barely doing anything.
I appreciate the moment.
To me, the definition of fun is not determined by how sweaty you become, run around and fooling around and stuff.
Sitting down, having a cup of F&N and laugh and chat and hear May's piano performance is fun too.
Really. Another type of fun. Thanks so much.
It might seem a little insignificant to you, why?
Easy, because you are not me.

It's only too natural for someone that have been criticized to be unhappy.

And i'm so sorry, that i don't like you.
And i really don't wish to be friends with you.
Don't come near me, i feel disgusted.
Don't worry, these words are said to whom i am not befriended.

No picture for this post too.

To me, i think that the most painful thing is regret.
Please, if i do anything wrong, tell me.
You can call me or text me or even tell me face to face.
Just be frank with me.
I don't want to regret afterward or something.
Of course i have regrets before, so i know the feeling.
It's a torture.
I can still remember every details of them and i know i will continue to remember it forever.

Things i want to say to:

Hui: You seem agitated in some ways, just keep a distance from that partcular person and remember that we will always be there for you.

May: You haven't change since Form 1! Only now i see it. From Hui's blog. The picture of you.

YJ: I am happy for you, friend. It seems that you have finally undo the knot in your heart. I like the current you. Congratulations! Now, we can share the joy. Cheers!

Me: Just feign ignorance to what other people say about you. You have your own life, and they have theirs. They don't know you thoroughly, they don't have the right to comment about whatever that concerns you. Just fign ignorance. Do what you are supposed to do. Care just your real friends. But, pray for the ones who dislike you too. Love your enemies. Says, God. Amen.

This is the bus station in Singapore.
It's clean and big.
I went to Singapore today with my family, just to go see my bro's school for the very first time.
I was thrilled, not the fact that i was going to see my bro's gigantic, enormous and splendid school.
But the fact that i was taking a bus to Singapore.
When was the last time i took a bus? It's like about 9 years ago.
Therefore, i have totally forgotten what it feels like, riding on a bus.
I can't deny that i love it.
It was awesome.
I enjoyed the whole thing, from the first moment when i board the bus till i get off the bus.
I love the feeling when the bus stops, i will fall forward a little as i was standing.
I love the feeling of looking down from the bus's window, and see all the cars pass by.
I love the feeling of people getting on and off bus at every stop as i wait for my stop.
It was incredible.
This trip to Singapore, saved it to memory.

Girls, can we go to Singapore together during the June school holidays?
Taking a bus.

No picture for today's post.

I am alone in my house now.
Being abandoned by my mum and bro.
They went to Singapore again to finish up my bro's applications.
So, i am dumped at home.
Haha, it's not the first time actually.
I am actually kinda excited, because mum isn't there to nag at me.
Woo hoo!
I am so touched just now.
I know my dad loves me dearly and maybe too much.
But you know what?
When i came back from school in Jes's car, he was there to open the door for me.
I was gobsmacked.
He came back because he was too worried about me staying at home alone.
The feeling was so overwhelming.
But of course i told him to go to work.
So now i am alone.
How much can a father love his child?
This much, this much.

Another great movie.
It's about the Titans, Greek Gods.
They are Zeus, Poseidon and Hades.
This has become a popular theme for a movie these days.
It's almost the same theme as Percy Jackson.

It's raining now.
It's rains everyday now, and i am actually enjoying it.
Love it too much.
The feeling of waking up when it is raining outside is so cool.
Far much better than the hot and sweltering sun.
Hate it.

I love bookmarks.
To someone who love novels and books like me, bookmarks are useful and nice.
I will cherish everyone of them.

My dad is flying off the pan now.
Terrifying. But luckily it's not me he's angry with, it's my brother.
I totally understand why.

People humiliate or scold people through Facebook.
Facebook is not designed to be used like this.
Don't be overwhelmed by your anger and lost your rational.
Facebook is a very dangerous weapon.
Once you post something, the whole world knows.
If you humiliate a person, that particular person will not be able to lift his head ever again.
Why will anyone be so cruel?
I totally patronize that kind of people.
Are you so timid that you can't ambush him yourself?
Tell him what infuriate you so much face to face.
That's gentleman's way.
Scolding through facebook? That's coward's way.

Watched it in CS with Jes yesterday.
I have heard people praising this film on how good it is and etcetera etcetera.
After seeing it myself, their praises were solidified.
Mm hmm, it is a incredible movie.
The plot and all were done perfectly.
I love the ending, catches us in both sides.
Sorrow and happiness.
Two thumbs up.

Never judge a person by his look. Never.
If you don't know that person well, please don't do that.
And by the way, even if he's really the way you said, how in the world does it concern you?
Even if i walk out wearing nothing or drink water from the tap, can you please just mind your own business?
I have changed. I am no longer the busybody i was in Form 1 and 2.
If you know me just half well, you will notice that.
So can you just treat me the way i treat you?
Don't understand? That means piss off.
Shut the hell up.
And i will appreciate it.
You have to know that because i don't say it doesn't mean i don't know how,
it's just that i don't want to end up becoming loathesome people like you.

Look at the time right now.
It says 8.14a.m.
Whew, someone ditched school.
Yeah, it's me alright.
Down with a fever yesterday, quite a severe one.
I didn't feel that sick in the morning, but it just got worse and worse.
Gah. And then everyone started to say i look like hell.
Of course i know that, my body was aching everywhere and i was having a headache.
Of course i looked like hell, i even felt like hell.
I almost wanted to call my mum and ask her to take me home.
Finally the finally has arrived. Went home and slept.
After that, i felt better.
My dad was frantic of course.
I wondered if it was because of the fact that i fainted before when i was five.
And was hospitalized.
Hope that i can recover soon. I am already much more better than yesterday.

The earth hour that everyone was waiting for has eventually ended at 9.30p.m yesterday.
I have to admit, what i did was really little.
I am not trying to be humble, really, i did nothing next to what most people have done.
I switched off my bedroom light, no air-conds, and no radios.
That's about all. Mm-hmm. My computer was still on.
I am really sorry about that.

I discovered that, for human beings to get along is really hard.
Considering the fact that all human beings differ in personality and all,
i really think that it's a miracle that i have best friends and my brother.
To be perfectly honest, i don't get along well enough with my parents.
But hey, i do respect them and love them from the bottom of my heart.
Just that, i am more comfortable if i spill my guts to my best friends and my brother.
I think the problem lies in the generation gap.
Their mind works differently than mine.
And that is really a shame.
Coming back to what i have said about getting along is hard.
Yeah, don't you agree?
I may think that telling good lies is ok, but you may think that whatever it is, telling lies is forbidden.
The way i talk and the way you talk will be different.
The way i solve things and your way will be different too.
And when this happen, we might just crash.
This is the problem i am facing everyday.
What should we do?

I don't know why.
I just want to say it out loud.
I love you my friends!
So, i went to find this quote. Lalalalalalalalala~

Today's trip was........bearable.
Listened to some bullshits (not exactly bullshits).
Just something that i have heard a zillion times,
About recycling and stuff.
Sigh. I know I know. I will be a part of it.
Jou Heng became our dad for the day.
It's really hilarious and fun.
Saving it to memory.
On the way back, guess what?
The bus driver went in the wrong direction, causing us to be in the middle of nowhere.
Shouldn't bus drivers be good at recognizing the ways?
Sigh.

I have always adored swinging.
It's the first thing i would run to when i reached the playground.
One swing. Two swing. Three swing.
And it will bring you high up in the sky.
More exhilarating if you close your eyes.
That feeling of flying.
Even now, at the age of sixteen, i still wish that i can go to the playground.
And just revive the time when i was in primary school.
That will be so cool.

Tomorrow, out of the blue, our school is organizing a trip to NusaJaya.
Just our class and the second class.
Hope it will be fun.
I am happy because we will not be attending classes.
About the trip though, hmm.

Just read Ah Hui's bloggie and i laughed.
You and i, thought of the same thing!
Oh my god, this is such a surprise.
Yeah, i want to get married too.
Of course, to the right guy before i close my eyes forever.
I feel guilty for asking so much from God.
Thinking that what am i having now is really too much, too perfect.
But i still hope that God permits me to live until then and fulfil my wish.
Amen.

I am now at home, with my mum, only.
Just the two of us.
My bro had gone out to spend the night at a hotel with his friends from Melacca.
So he won't be back until tomorrow.
My dad isn't back yet.
He attended a meeting in KL and is coming back at around 11.00p.m.
We women really have to count on guys to protect us.
I feel unsafe. Really unsafe, with my dad and bro absent.
God bless us.

Have you guys seen The lovely Bones?
I really love that show but i was having nightmares the night i watched it.
It's not that it have a lot of gruesome sight and blood splashing everywhere.
But there's just something that creeps me out.
Ah Hui, i would like you to watch it.
I don't know why, but i just want you to watch.
Maybe i want to share this meaningful movie to you.
I don't know. No special reasons though.
I cried after watching it. This show reflects how much can a father (not necessarily a father, it can be a mother) love his child.
I am really touched to the deepest of my core.
I hate lunatics. The real psychos. I hate, despise, patronize them!
GO TO HELL!!!!
Even though the show can not find what it is searching for, but consider it as a great movie, sure.

One more thing.
This is the picture of the lead actress, starring Saoirse Ronan as Susie Salmon in the show.
Any idea how to pronounce her name? You don't? Well, let me tell you!
You pronounce it as "Sairsha" or "Sersha" or "Seersha".
I love her name!
Do you agree that she is beautiful?
I simply think so.
She has such pretty eyes (not contact lens, by the way). Her eyes are light blue.
And her smile is brilliant.
My mum says that she is going to be someone extremely famous when she grows up.
Oh! And she is our age for your information.
She's turning 16 next month.


I love this one!

Sleeping is one of my hobbies.
And it's also considered one of the things we enjoy most, agree?
Read about an article about sleep today.
Hmm...scanning through the article while i'm typing this.....
Ok, it says here that a person will die from total lack of sleep sooner than from starvation.
Death will occur about 10 days without sleep,
While starvation takes a few weeks.
And the most tragic of all, to me, is the occurring of "natural alarm clock".
To the best of my knowledge, me and Hui has it before.
It enables some people to wake up more or less when they want to is caused by a burst of the stress hormone.
Gah! Stress.
Our sleeping positions can show us our personality.
I have two sleeping positions. So,
Mine is believed to have an open personality but could be indecisive.
And usually people who have good listening skills and attract many friends who seek genuine advice.
How cool is that? It actually reflects my personality!

Usually i can't sleep with my boaster.
But i don't know why.
So i asked mum:"Hey mum, why do i like my boaster?"
Mum said:" That's because you love to hug something, when you are still a baby, you love to be hugged or carried."
No wonder i love the feeling of being hugged.
It's so comforting and when i cry or feel sad, i always wanted or longed for a hug.
This is so amazing.
Hugging can soothe someone. Just one hug.
Give me a hug when i am sad next time.
Love hugs.
And i think everyone does. Right?
Never mind couple's lovey-dovey hug.
I mean the hug that you can give anyone just to soothe someone.
That should be really nice.

Actually. These are the pictures from Ah Hui's blog.
Mm hmm. We went swimming on Tuesday and i was waiting for her to upload the photos.
Hope you won't mind that i copied them down.
I really had a wonderful time with you all.
Sometimes i just want the memories to be ours. Haha.
So, i won't explain about the details.
Oh! And me and Jes and Hui and Belle were the models of the day.
Me and Jes looked more like taking advantages of their cameras.
I didn't brought mine. Because i knew they will bring.
Ah Hui, can you please help me to develop some of the pictures?
Like the ones up there.
But if you are not free, then it's ok!

I have been updating quite a lot, haven't i?
Mostly talking to myself. Haha.
Ok so, my feelings now is complicated.
I often have these feelings you know.
At most times, i feel very happy at first because of a particular reason.
But afterwards, i will be embraced by the feeling of anger? and sorrow.
Sorrow because of the book i read.
Or a sad movie i saw that will summon your tears.
Anger because of someone that had said something to me or just did something.
Anger is easy to put off for me now.
As i decided to be happy.
Sorrow on the other hand, is hard.
I have these feelings now. Go away!

Ok, so, i am excited right now.
Because i am going somewhere with the girls tomorrow.
I'll be on my best behaviour and try to show the new me (not much of changes).
Hopefully.

A good book teaches you about life.
Books always reflex and relates to life.
It is often about the story of people's life although the author will make some changes to make it more interesting,
but it is still strongly bonded to real life.
Books that have great impacts on us is a fantastic book.
Of course i am talking about good ones.
And i can't deny that i learned a lot from the novels i read.
My books are all great and fab.
They are ALL great.
They teaches me things i have never thought about before and changes me into a sensible person.
I am grateful to the authors.
I think highly of them.
I like them and respect them more than a singer, more than any showbiz.
They changes my life. But songs won't change my life.
They are both my favourite entertainment.
But they have different impacts on me.
Music can make me feel better and i need it very much.
Novels change my life and i will keep all my books under strict maintenance.
I will reread them countless times till i can nearly recite them.
In case i forgot what the book had taught me.

Friends, that's why i love Miss Caroline.
Not only being the teacher of my English language, but also teaches us about life.
Which influence me in a lot of ways.

Went to Sunway College to attend a talk about the course available for my brother.
My brother is like a lost bird these days, not knowing how to proceed and in what direction.
Poor guy. That's what it feels like being the eldest child in the family.
Nobody can give you a piece of advice on what should you do in the future.
And being the second, that is me, i feel lucky.
Because my brother would know the advantages and disadvantages and just guide me.
Fortunately for my brother, that my dad is a knowledgeable guy and can still give him some advice.
My dad won't force him into anything. Just state what is the careers suitable for him and ask him to think over it thoroughly.
It was his future, not my dad's.
He have the decide on his own.
And that's the main reason we attended the talk.
To get him familiarised with the meaning of Pre-U and the courses available.
There's quite a variety of choices.
But i think he prefers Pre-U than A level.
I learned about it too. And i think i will also think about it.
Two of his choices are Leisure and hotel management, which he is over qualified,
And Environmental management.
I think the environmental management is a great job.
I thought of being a environmental engineer too, it's such a beneficial job.
Not the income i am referring, it's the nobility.

If everyone can have more forgiveness, the world would be much more perfect.

If everyone can have no regrets, the world would be much more perfect.

If everyone can have more intelligence, the world would be more perfect.

If everyone can have more time, the world would be much more perfect.

If everyone can just think before acting, the world would be much more perfect.

But that doesn't going to be happen.
It's just a dream.

You can choose to be happy.
You can choose.
I choose to be happy.
And i will be happy from now onwards.
Hope that i can achieve this goal i made myself.

Sorry folks.
Had a severe headache yesterday night.
Suspect that it was the flu virus.
Screw it.
Therefore, i didn't update just i said i would.
So i will do it today.

I have seen how Tiger Woods fall.
One night he is still a super duper golf player with a property that i can't imagine.
But the next day, he has become a filthy rat who each of everyone of us hate and despise.
I really wonder why should anyone fall into the hole he himself dig?
And now, there's one more exposed. Neo.
Good gracious, i have always liked him. Because of the remarkable films he created and produced.
But that doesn't save him, he would be patronized.
All because of one particular reason.
They can't cope with their lust.
No matter how pretty their wife is, they still wanna fool around outside.
Serves them right.
I really don't know why would this kind of thing happen.
The most foolish thing i had ever encounter with.
You can keep one or the most two mistress.
But 11 or 12? You should have your brain checked guys.
No, I should call you bastards.

I thought, what if, my husband is like that in the future?
What will i do?
No, i won't be as naive as Neo's wife, still stating that i love him and love this marriage.
No, i won't be like Erin, bashing Tiger up.
I will be as calm as the river, take my things, take his money, and walk away.
There's really no point in discussing anymore.
Just be honest with me.
And when that happens.
I'll never think that guys are to be trusted anymore and i'll begin with my stereo-typing.
Dear boys, please, be sensible and faithful to your girlfriends and wife.

There are no secrets in the world, friends.
Everything will be revealed.
No secrets at all.
You can keep it for the time being, but you can't keep it forever.
There are no secrets forever.

Alice in Wonderland is one of my favourite fairy tales.
But to the best of my knowledge, this movie had done quite a lot of altering and stuff.
I didn't expect it to be the original one because it wouldn't be that interesting then.
So, something had to be added into the original one to make it more lively and engrossing.
From my point of view, i think it's a great success and it's worth it.
I really appreciate how each of every actor bring out their character in the movie.
They really done their best and earned a round of applause.
Therefore, cheers to Alice in Wonderland!
Appreciate it.
Oh! Don't forget the song too!
It's Alice, by Avril! Superb song!

Me and Jes had a fabulous time together.
Ate my favourite ice-cream at Baskin Robin and only then i considered my outing whole.
Haha. I still can't resist it.

Congratulations to my wonderful bro.
8A's and 5 A+.
Well done!

Will post more tomorrow.

You guys miss me?
Blog mistress is finally back.
Sorry for the long wait my dears.
Ok. So, i have just finished my first test.
FINALLY!
Oh God. When on earth did i care so much about first tests before?
This is bad. Bad. Bad.
The subject i feared most was Chemistry.
But now i knew i got 80 for it, it's like a bomb being de-attached from my heart.
Phew.
But i am still terrified of my other results.
Ah forget it!

On the first day of exam
There wasn't much time for us to sit down and slowly fish out our stationeries.
Why? Because we are damn late for the exam!
The doors of the hall wasn't open until 7.25a.m.
And what time were we going to sit for the exam?
7.25 a.m. We started late.
Who's fault? I don't wanna say anything. Sigh.
Fantastic. I thought i can't finish my English paper.

On the second day of the exam
My worst nightmare.
Biology.
Hate it to the core. Puke puke gag gag gag!!!!!!!!!!

On the third day of the exam
Nothing special happened to me but.
Poor Joey and poor Salted fish.
Being caught red-handed in cheating in exam.
And got 0 for add maths.
Sigh.
Please learn a lesson and don't repeat it.

May God bless us. Amen.

Had something to do, so i decided to blog something.
Ok, yesterday was the last day of February.
Do you know what's that in the picture?
That was a picture of a full moon that i took yesterday.
It was so beautiful that i felt the need to just snap one.

February=====>March

Went for lunch with Jes.
Chatted about everything.
About future, about friends, about everything.
Chatting really entertains me.
I think it's same for Jes too.
We even talk about college life, married life and all that stuff.
The good thing is we have same opinions and stuff. Yay.
There are so much to talk about.

I really feel miserable.
You won't understand.

I have a great satisfaction in our choir performance.
No matter what others say.
I know it wasn't perfect, but it was really better than the rehearsal one.
Agree?
At least we did ok.
Not too bad. Right?
Cameraman of the day, KX, signaled us a "good" sign.
At least we earned it.
And i love the performance by May may and Kei kei and Esther and others.
The traditional dance.
Cool.
Jes and me went home early.
So we didn't know what happened after that.
Salted fish said they had quite a fun.

YJ's blog is removed.
Where did you go?

Visited my brother today.
Time really passes so quickly i barely realized.
Just two more weeks and he's out of there.

I will blog less these days.
Exam's coming.
Ciao

Went to the rehearsal for the choir performance.
I wasn't in good condition yesterday.
Felt giddy and i think that was the cause of my nausea.
Luckily i didn't eat lunch if not i will throw everything up.
Strictly speaking, i did eat. A packet of biscuit and a packet of milk.
That's all.

Our performance is the first.
And i think lots of people don't like it.
Lack of cooperation. I know.
But it's not going to some world's competition or something.
So. In addition, we have limited time to practise.
So, pardon our mistakes and all.
Even if you don't like it, i will not be the slightest discouraged.
I know we will have fun on stage.
That's the most important part.
And i really want to thank Ah Hui and BY.
You guys has been really awesome.
If it weren't for you guys, i don't know how our choir performance will turn out.
I love you all.

I have been feeling giddy for quite some time now.
I really wonder what's wrong.
And hope that jia ming will have a speed recovery.
Amen.

The feeling came like a tidal wave.
Washing me and brought me to the bottom of the ocean.
My lungs were insufficient of fresh air.
But i can't feel it.
Because another pain was overwhelming me.
Heartache.
Why was it so torturing?
Because i did my best on swimming.
But it came to nothing.

God wants me to know that:
If i relax, it comes.
Don't seek, don't search, don't ask, don't knock, don't demand.
Just relax.
If i relax, it is there.
If i relax, God will show me the way.

Thanks for the memories.
You are in my most beautiful memories.
If God permits, i would like to remember it forever and even take it with me after i die.
All the time spent with you girls. Countless times.

Right after tuition, my dad fetched me and Jes to Ah Hui's house.
Her dad was organizing a party, and there was really a lot of guests.
The food was terrific, and i really love the ice kacang.
Not forgetting the agar-agar too!

It has been a while since i last met Jasmine.
Changed into a sweet young lady. =)

Played cards upstairs and it was really fun.
Although some are childish, but i really like it.
It was thrilling.

After that, we went downstairs again to grab something to eat.
Ah Hui ordered a plate of mutton.
It was really nice too.

Photo-shooting session.

Firecrackers!
It was superb!

That's my doggie. Her name is Purple.
Say hello!

A question has been popped out in my head since last Sunday.
How will we look like if we die?
Christians, like me, believe that the body we are using right now are just shells that are borrowed.
And after we died, we have to return it to nature.
And then our souls will come out from the shells and follow Jesus.
How will we look like then?
Our looks right now, belong to our body.
Do our souls look the same as our body?
Or just look like a cloud of mist?
I am curious.
Maybe all the souls in the world look exactly the same.
God's fair. Right?
No more unusually pretty ones or handsome ones.
Is it like that?
And all the physically-challenged ones, their souls are perfect.
Because it's their bodies which are not functioning good. Not their souls. Right?
I have always believe that what we look like right now, will be the look after we die.
It will be the same.
But that doesn't seem fair to others which are crippled or so.
Therefore, i hope my theory on the look being the bodies' is right.
God is fair.

THE LAST DAY
Happy moments past by faster than any other moments.
Time to go back.
Packed all our things and headed back.

I can see that my brother was not happy to leave but, it left him no choice.
And there are only 26 more days left for him to graduate.
We spent six hours to get back home from KL.
The traffic was so heavy and i had to hold back from answering nature's call.

Ate at a mamak stall at 8.30p.m.
Reached home at 9p.m.
Moped my room and unpacked the things.
Dead beat.
Off the light, doze off.
Snoring.

THE FOURTH DAY
Went to Megamall right after we had our breakfast at the hotel.
My brother wanted to catch a movie.
So we accompanied him to purchase his tickets and the following picture is what we visioned.
Good gracious! It was only 10 in the morning and the crowd was terrifying!
Oh well. This is the life in KL.
He chose the movie, Wolfman.

My mum and i wandered around the shopping mall.
Buying things, looking at branded stuff and taking pictures.
These are the purse in the shop Che Che.
One of these costs RM350.00.
They cost a bomb don't they?
But they are so cute.

Oh! And the decorations in the shopping mall was fantastic!
They are really creative and remarkable.
Unlike JB.
I even saw lion dance performance!
I love lion dance since tender age.
It's really interesting isn't it?
This is the best i could take.
The people in front of me was burying me!

Presenting!
The fashionistas!